ATTENTION:

Sir Ded has reincarnated on Xanga.  Click here to view the good knight's new blog!

ever looked forward to something just...really great... all day and then been let down at 4 in the morning cause it didn't happen?

oh, well.

well guys, i've lost the time, motivation, and material to keep this site going.  i think it's time for me to let it go.  maybe it will be reincarnated someday under a different name.

best of luck to all!

be well, do good work, and keep in touch.

--kipper (ded)

"I've worked with a lot of artists, Em, and they all have a need that cannot be met by another human being."
-M L'E

i left to love myself, and i am continuously finding out how profoundly difficult that can be.

well, i have returned to xanga, and i am taking the blogging thing pretty easy.

i'd love to give a comprehensive run-down of what my growth and evolution have been like as of late, but there's just too much to tell.  i guess i could summarize it all by saying this:

much/most of my growth over the past year has been essentially intellectual.  i am unceasingly amazed, however, to see how consistently my intellectual growth is paralleled by a growth in love and compassion for other people.

each day i am very pleasantly surprised by how much more my empathetic senses have evolved; i have been held in a state of happiness and contentment for several weeks now by how consistently and intensely my love for others has been growing.

i'm tired now, and i'm off to dream about golden fields of barley.

be well, keep in touch, and do good work!

--ded, online knight

p.s. in response to the questions posted to my last blog, i am nineteen years old and the latin quote above means one of two things:

1.) And he applies his mind to obscure arts.

or the literal translation

2.) And he creates life with obscure arts.

the evolution of the ded blog:

ok.  so it's been a few weeks since i've been in the blogging scene.  i don't know how many people still check in on my site, and it's hard work to build up a good posse of faithful readers -- hard work i don't know that i'm up for again.

at any rate, for those who still do read, are the hospital stories interesting?  should i keep those as my babies, or should i stick with random subjects everyday?

maybe i should just do random stories and throw in a hospital story every few days.

what do you think?

be well, do good work, and keep in touch.

--ded, online knight